I have no mood to study!!

You know how high school students in Malaysia enjoy saying things like, it's okay if I don't get good results now, I have time to study and I'll do better in the next exam. And during exams, we say things like "after this exam, I'm gonna go home and study sooooo hard that my eyes will fall out of their sockets". I, am the first to admit that I have been saying things like that sooo often, so many goddamn times indeed...It starts off with me studying a little bit, then realizing that I cannot cram the entire contents of a 600 page revision book into my head in time to sit for the exam(which is usually two days away). Then I tell myself things like, "its okay, I didn't have enough time to study now, doesn't mean I won't have enough time to study for the next exam, I promise to start earlier". Which is, totally, fine, if you stick to your guns.

But I for one, am not someone who sits down and studies, unless the subject being studied is one that I really like( none, under the current exam syllabus, unless you count English, but I don't know how to study for English). I mean, I really don;t mind History, or whatever, but last minute cramming is my style, and it has been my style for oh so many years. I just can't bring myself to do it any other way. It worked for me in standard 6, worked for me in form 3, so my logic is that it should work in form 5. Only flaw in that logic is that I'm taking 11 subjects, and (logically speaking), if one subject has a 600 page long revision book that needs to be studied, then last minute cramming entails stuffing the contents of eleven 600 page long revision books in my tiny, tiny brain. Of course, there are subjects that have less things to study (eg English, BM and IT) but then there are subjects that need A LOT of time to study (eg Physics, Chem, Bio, Add Maths and basically everything else). And if my recent results are anything to judge by, then I have to say, my style definitely isn't working. Obviously i would not be able to do any last minute cramming with these subjects, and need to start studying early.

However, here I am sitting in front of the computer, Blogging. There is a revision book on the table (actually, there are a few revision books, but I failed to notice them before) but I just don't have the energy to pick them up, much less open them. All those promises I made to myself about studying? Broken, broken, broken.

And hence I sign out, but with much resignation.